Então... Depois de muito, muito tempo,estou eu aqui de volta.
Mudei o nome e o link do blog para que assim as pessoas que antes acessavam-no não tenham mais acesso.

Eu havia criado um novo blog ontem, e ia ser em inglês, mas quando começei a ler aqui, perebi que é muito pensamento jogado fora se eu simplesmente abandonar de vez. Então vou continuar daqui mesmo, e copiar o que eu havia escrito no outro.

Explaining myself

I need to chage. This is a reality I have since I was born. Change all the time is a need of the human being, changing to survive.
I already changed a lot since I realized it, but I need more, I need to create a whole new person, someone who can be able to say proudly "I am a woman. Iam a grown up. I am an adult, so fuck off".
By now, even having 20 years, I don't feel like a woman. I'm still a girl, still a child, and I need to grow up.
This blog is an alternative to therapy, because that isn't working anymore, and I hope that being honest with myself here will help me.

Random Thoughts

Okay, so ... Sometimes I have tend to talk by myself, and as I lived alone for almost a year, sometimes I find myself talking those kind of things with my brother, who talks back.

Today, I was saying about how often I get dizzy in big places, like the supermarket we went this week. I was thinking it was because I was without my glasses, that I lost in the beginning of the year, but he said that it is not, since I do not get dizzy everywhere, every time.

So, he concluded that it could only be because of my social phobia, which I thought it was under control for years. Was I wrong? And why the hell do I believe everything he say? I Wish I had answers...

I wonder why this happen to me.Once I read in a magazine that panic disorder (another hell that I have) could be from a suicide in another life. I believe I could be a suicidal spirit, since I have fought (and still am sometimes) so hard against this impulse in this life, and the panic disorder came only to confirm that this is not just a new problem I have.

I have so many flaws, so many problems, I don't even know where to begin. But there must be a start point, and I will find it, and I will fight and cure all this shit that is happening to me! I will! Watch out life, watch out world: I will win

Então... Depois de muito, muito tempo,estou eu aqui de volta.
Mudei o nome e o link do blog para que assim as pessoas que antes acessavam-no não tenham mais acesso.

Eu havia criado um novo blog ontem, e ia ser em inglês, mas quando começei a ler aqui, perebi que é muito pensamento jogado fora se eu simplesmente abandonar de vez. Então vou continuar daqui mesmo, e copiar o que eu havia escrito no outro.

Explaining myself

I need to chage. This is a reality I have since I was born. Change all the time is a need of the human being, changing to survive.
I already changed a lot since I realized it, but I need more, I need to create a whole new person, someone who can be able to say proudly "I am a woman. Iam a grown up. I am an adult, so fuck off".
By now, even having 20 years, I don't feel like a woman. I'm still a girl, still a child, and I need to grow up.
This blog is an alternative to therapy, because that isn't working anymore, and I hope that being honest with myself here will help me.

Random Thoughts

Okay, so ... Sometimes I have tend to talk by myself, and as I lived alone for almost a year, sometimes I find myself talking those kind of things with my brother, who talks back.

Today, I was saying about how often I get dizzy in big places, like the supermarket we went this week. I was thinking it was because I was without my glasses, that I lost in the beginning of the year, but he said that it is not, since I do not get dizzy everywhere, every time.

So, he concluded that it could only be because of my social phobia, which I thought it was under control for years. Was I wrong? And why the hell do I believe everything he say? I Wish I had answers...

I wonder why this happen to me.Once I read in a magazine that panic disorder (another hell that I have) could be from a suicide in another life. I believe I could be a suicidal spirit, since I have fought (and still am sometimes) so hard against this impulse in this life, and the panic disorder came only to confirm that this is not just a new problem I have.

I have so many flaws, so many problems, I don't even know where to begin. But there must be a start point, and I will find it, and I will fight and cure all this shit that is happening to me! I will! Watch out life, watch out world: I will win

"Eu quero saber me querer
com toda a beleza e abominação
que há em mim"
Trecho de "A Sombra" da Pitty Quem? Tali, garota de 20 anos. Nem mulher, nem menina. Indecisa, curiosa, preguiçosa. Medrosa. Péssima em relações sociais. Poucos amigos. Depressiva, compulsiva, quase obsessiva.
Onde? Pequena cidade do interior - Rio Grande do sul
Quando? 20/07/2012 - O dia que você vai se arrepender para sempre ou orgulhar-se de você mesma...
Por que? Criei o blog há muitos anos, nem lembro porque... Mas desde o início deste ano (2012) eu tenho pensado em usá-lo coma uma alternativa a psicoterapia...
Como? Escrevendo o que há na minha mente, ou colando quotes e letras de músicas.. Tudo aquilo que servir para me lembrar onde quero chegar, como quero estar, quem eu quero ser...